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How much do you weigh? Confronting my fear of the Doctor’s office…

March 31, 2021

“How much do you weigh?” The nurse asked me as she filled in my chart. This is what I was afraid of. Honestly. I am admitting to you that I fear going to the doctor because I do not want to be forced to weigh myself – and consequently deal with the assumptions about my […]

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“How much do you weigh?”

The nurse asked me as she filled in my chart.

This is what I was afraid of. Honestly. I am admitting to you that I fear going to the doctor because I do not want to be forced to weigh myself – and consequently deal with the assumptions about my health because of that number. I am extremely intentional about cultivating an environment that removes triggers from my life – weighing myself being a MAJOR trigger. I had been fighting going to the Dr for my cold these last 3 weeks for this reason. My husband practically kicked me out the door to go, but I put my big girl panties on…And here I was, right in the moment I was fearing.

“I’m not sure, haven’t weighed myself in years”

“Okay, Do you want to get on the scale?”

Let me stop here and say wow, she asked ME if I would like to. She gave me choice over my own body. I was stunned. I immediately felt at ease and the fear melted away.

“No thanks”

“Okay, no problem, how about a guesstimate just for your records?”

“Sure, let’s say 240lbs”

And she wrote it down and we moved on.

I ended that excursion with a shot in this sweet peach of mine and I’m feeling human again. And I am well on my way to overcoming my fear of the doctor. 

I know not every experience will be this positive, especially existing happily in a plus size body where my health is always a question just by looking at me…but I have been given hope and strength to put my health and my needs above the opinions of others.

And I want to encourage you to do the same. Because I recognized that my fear of going was only a fear of being judged. And well, that’s not something I’m allowing myself to carry anymore. 

So I’m curious: What have been your experiences at the dr? I know this is a huge source of anxiety/pain for many plus women or any person that’s struggled with body image or eating disorders etc 

Just do you babes!

Xoxo

Allie

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